I feel pretty confident these days… My clothes are fitting well, I am building some muscle and I feel really strong! Having been so overweight for SO long its still hard for me to see myself as someone who isn’t still a little fat girl inside… I am still insecure at times. I still struggle with self acceptance of who I am. But truly I am happy now or at least getting there!
When I was overweight I thought if I could get down to a certain weight I’d be happy; that all my problems would disappear… HAH! Chance would be a fine thing… Since I lost my weight 5 years ago I have fluctuated up and down by a few pounds. At my lightest weight I weighed in at 147lbs… Thats probably heavier than some of you at your heaviest lol, but I weighed well over 230lbs at my heaviest so its a huge difference… I have a big frame; big hands, big feet, a broad back… So it wouldnt matter what I did I am not built to be one of those skinny wee girls… Nor do I want to be anymore. Thats just not me!
Me at my lightest weight verses me this morning… Around a stone heavier!
I won a 12 week plan with Brian Keane at Christmas and have been training under his program over the past 6 weeks. I am doing mostly weight training and doing a small bit of running once or twice a week; just a few miles. Over the years I have always put running first and all my weight training that I did with Ryan was geared towards improving my running performance. This time its just about building muscle and strength! Over the past 6 weeks I have lost quite a few inches, continued improving my relationship with food and my strength has come on SO much in a short space of time. I haven’t been perfect with my diet but I’ve been quite consistent and I’m really happy with my progress so far…
Looking at the almost halfway photos I am quite happy with my progress. I can really see a difference and the measurements are coming down as well… Know how much weight I’ve lost? 1lb. Thats it… If I was in a slimming club and only lost a pound in 6 weeks I’d probably be gutted, but when you look back on the photos you can see the changes and feel the difference.
When I got down to my lightest weight I was on a strict diet for 8 weeks and calories were lowish… I felt great health wise but I missed nice food! Eating the exact same healthy thing can get a little boring! Sometimes I need a big pizza or a brownie and ice cream… You can get the perfect body but you have to give up an awful lot… Nights out, cosy nights in, takeaways, brunches etc. I love all that stuff! I know my limits now and I can have balance and a bit of moderation. I will never again be overweight like I was… I know in my heart I will never go back to being that way because I have worked too hard to mess up… I might have a lazy few weeks here and there where I don’t track my food as well and eat too many donuts… But I love being healthy and training too much to ever go back to my old lazy ways… I can be an emotional eater at times and comfort eat like everyone does occasionally… But I am learning to do this less and less and although I’m not perfect I am improving every day…
The point I’m trying to make is that you dont NEED to be a certain weight on the scales. You need to be healthy, you need to be confident and you need to be active… You need to eat your veggies and your protein, you need to get out and train and you need to do things that make you happy. Go on road trips, spend time with your family, read a good book etc. Look after your body and your body will look after you ❤
Thanks as always for reading… Any questions you can mail me firstname.lastname@example.org or find me on Instagram @thehonestykitchen
Happy Sunday xx
Chapter 2 of 12… February